Wednesday, 23 January 2013

Metal Gear Rising Demo Impressions



When Metal Gear Rising was first announced I was initially sceptical of the concept.  Then I replayed Metal Gear Solid 4 and saw cyborg ninja Raiden in action again and my initial doubts were replaced with excitement.  I mean, who wouldn’t want to play as Raiden now we’ve seen what he’ capable of?  What wouldn’t be amazing about killing Metal Gears with a samurai sword?

The first of the game footage came out and showed u that the game would let you cut anything and everything you could imagine.  The swordplay looked amazing and could actually make you feel like you could actually experience the coolness of being a cyborg ninja.
Then they released more footage and the game started to take a slightly different turn.  It suddenly struck me that the game looked more like Devil May Cry or Darksiders than any kind of Metal Gear game I had ever seen before.  My heart began to lowly sink and my excitement turned once again to scepticism and doubt.

However, today was the day that the first demo for Rising was released on Xbox Live.  Downloading it as quickly as I could and loaded it up.  Despite my misgivings I wanted to get a feel of the game, to see if my doubts were justified or not.

I still don’t know what to make of the game though.  It does feel a lot like Metal Gear Solid, but down to small things like the inclusion of the Codec, getting to fight the Gecko’s and certain sound effects.  Other than that the game just didn’t feel like a Metal Gear Solid game.  Maybe I’m just so used to sneaking around and avoiding enemies that the idea of fighting them intentionally just seems weird to me.
Despite the major differences in game play to other titles in the series I’m still holding out hope that the story will engaging enough to capture my imagination.  For me the best parts of the Metal Gear Solid series has been the amazing stories and characters that have been such a staple of the series.  Hopefully Rising will continue to uphold these traditions of story telling.

For now I’m still uncertain as to how the game will be outside of a demo, and a lot of what my opinion will be will be based upon how the story continues on from Metal Gear Solid 4 and how well it lives u to the legacy of its predecessors.  For now I’m going to go into rising with some fears, but some hope as well.

Amy.

Tuesday, 22 January 2013

Thai Anti-Trans Advert



I was surprised to see an article in the news today concerning an anti-trans advert that has been airing in Thailand over the Christmas period.  Anti-trans content in film and cinema is, unfortunately, nothing new but what surprised me the most was that it came out of Thailand.

As far as I was aware Trans people are more visible and accepted in Thai culture than other countries, generally being treated with respect.  Yes, I’m sure we’ve all heard about the stereotypes of ‘Thai Lady Boys’ being sex workers, which I’m sure is true, but there is more to any gender, race or religion than those few who work in the sex industry.  Thailand has had many Trans beauty queens, champion Trans Volleyball teams and even Thai Boxers.

For a country that seems to be so progressive with their acceptance of Trans people and acknowledge that they are just ordinary folk living normal lives it’s shocking to see a television advertisement where they are so openly mocked.
The advert in question if for Ikea, and is called Luem Aeb which translates to ‘forget to deceive’.  The advert show a couple that are walking through an Ikea store when the woman is so surprised by the deals that she slips into a male voice, much to the horror of her male companion.  The woman is then seen carrying a heavy box as her companion runs away.

Thai Transgender Alliance has issued a letter of complaint to Ikea and has said that the company should issue an apology.  
It seems like ever step forward the Trans community takes we have to deal with another knock back.  I don’t understand why people see to still think that it’s okay to be able to use the Transgender community as a joke subject.  The advert isn’t one of the worst offenders, but even small slights against the Trans community can have a devastating effect.

Amy.

Monday, 21 January 2013

The Waiting's The Worst



I first went to see my doctor about being Trans over a year ago, November 2011.  Before that I’d been on a number of websites and forums and talked to other Trans people, found out what I could about the process of transitioning.  One of the things that stuck out that people seemed to always tell me was that it was going to take a long while.  I just didn’t expect how long it would actually be.

It seems like my whole process of getting from my first time talking with my GP to the Gender Clinic has been one long struggle.  I’ve had to fight every step of the way.  Every time I’ve been referred from one person to the next I’ve had to fight for my appointments, has to phone and email and visit people again and again to get any kind of answers.  I’ve never just been given an appointment.

After struggling for months to get, and finally pass, my psychologist appointments I’ve been waiting on my actual referal with the Gender Clinic for over nine months.  Every time I call them to find out when my appointment is I get told another story, another reason why it’s taking so long.  I’ve been pushed around from person to person and given excuses time and time again.

Last week I was told that if, IF, my doctors send out a certain piece of documentation to the Gender Clinic immediately then the earliest I will get my appointment will be November.  That will mean that if for the first time in this whole process things actually go my way, that if I’m not given any more excuses or ignored or forgotten then I can get an appointment almost a year from now.  Great!  Right?  I mean, who wouldn’t want to spend two years getting an appointment?

Then again, that’s if things move along quickly and things happen for me with some kind of speed.  Based on my past experience with the process so far I very much doubt that this is going to be the case.  Which means that it probably won’t be November when I get my appointment but quite a while after.

I’m not ashamed to admit that being told this broke me a little, that I’ve spent most of the time since something of a wreck.  I’ve spent half of the time around people, pretending I’m fine, half on my own crying my eyes out.  It feels like my whole future is up in the air at the minute, I don’t know what’s going on, other than the fact that I’m going to be stuck in this limbo for at least another year.

I know things will be moving forward eventually and that I’ll get where I need to be in order to be happy, but I don’t know when.  Each day is a struggle, a constant pain because I just can’t be me.  I feel like my life is slipping away from me a day at a time and no matter what I do I’m never going to get that time back because I’m relying on other people to move the process along. 

People have advised me to go private, but at the minute I can’t afford that short of getting a loan and/or selling everything I own.  I’ve also been told that it’s possible to buy the hormones I need off the Internet, though this option can be very dangerous.  To be honest though, at the moment both of these options aren’t completely off the table, just because waiting on the NHS is hurting me so much.

I know that the NHS is a good service, that I’m lucky to have it, but I don’t understand why it has to take this long.  Do they want to weed out those people that aren’t serious about transitioning by making the process so long and hard?  If so the only thing that achieves is hurting those people that really need it, that have to keep on living in a hellish existence. 

Transitioning is hard enough, the challenges and prejudices hard enough without the people who are supposed to be helping making the process even harder than it already is.  Right now my confidence in the whole system has been shaken, and I feel like my life is going nowhere right now.  I don’t now what’s going to happen to me, how I’m going to be able to stay sane whilst I wait for this appointment. 

I knew that this was going to be long and hard, but I didn’t expect it to hurt me as much as it has.

Amy.

Doctor Who 'Inferno' Review



The evil Brigade Leader from the alternate Earth.

‘Inferno’ is the final story of Jon Pertwee’s first series on Doctor Who and also marks Caroline John’s final appearance as Liz Shaw.

‘The Inferno’ is the nickname given to a project to drill into the Earth’s core to reach the pockets of Stahlman’s Gas, which is theorised to provide abundant amounts of cheap energy.  The project, headed up by the ill-tempered Professor Stahlman, begins to experience some problems when one of the workers comes into contact with a toxic green slime during a repair on one of the drill pipes and proceeds to kill another of the technicians on the project.

Unit is called in to deal with the security problem.  They are joined by the Doctor, who is using some of the facilities resources to work on his own project on the control console from the Tardis, trying to repair the locks the Time Lords placed upon it, stranding him on Earth.

During these experiments the Doctor is thrown sideways through time and space, materialising on an alternate Earth.  In this new reality, where Great Britain is a republic ruled by a fascist regime, the ‘Inferno’ project is moving ahead at an accelerated rate.  This more advanced project is also home to the British Republican Security Forces, which include ‘Brigade Leader’ Lethbridge-Stewart, ‘Section Leader’ Elizabeth Shaw and ‘Platoon Under Leader’ Benton.

Having to contend with these alternate versions of his friends the Doctor must find a way of contending with the threats coming from the ‘Inferno’ project, and return home before the same fate befalls his own reality.

The Doctor must make the R.S.F. trust him if they are to survive.
‘Inferno’ is one of the best stories from the classic series and Pertwee’s run in particular.  The use of a parallel word allows both the writers and the actors to try new things and give the audience something new. 

The alternate versions of the Brigadier, Liz and Benton are vicious and at times vindictive versions of the characters we have come to love over the course of Pertwee’s first year as the Doctor.  It also allows the writers to deliver on the threats in the story.  In this new reality these familiar characters, even the world itself, can perish.

With anyone and everyone at risk and the Doctor completely alone without any allies or companions makes this a particularly impressive story, with more tension than normal. 

The cast play their parts perfectly, giving the audience two brilliant performances, with some beloved characters being transformed into versions of themselves that you actually want to watch be killed.

The monstrous Primords.
The alternate versions of Unit are not the only threat the Doctor has to face on the alternate earth, he must also contend with the monstrous Primord.  Creatures created when people come into contact with the strange green substance coming up from the very centre of the Earth itself.  The Primords are one of the best monsters used in the history of the show, they will either attack you and rip you to pieces, or change you into one of them.  With a single touch from the Primords meaning a fate worse than death the stakes are once again risen higher as our heroes try to fight for their lives.

An amazing story that shows us new and interesting versions of the Unit family, with a stand out monster and high stakes.  One of the show’s best.  10/10

Amy.
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An Apology For My Absence



I just wanted to take a moment to apologise for my absence from the blog for the past few days. 

Unfortunately I received some bad news on Thursday last week and it knocked me back.  I spent most of the weekend either trying to forget what was happening or spent my time thinking about it, crying my eyes out.  

Because of this I neglected my blog.  I had set out to update it every single day, and wanted to upload a Doctor Who related post every day as part of my celebration of the show’s 50th anniversary.  For those people that are regular readers of my blog and have subscribed to the Facebook page I sincerely apologise for letting you down.

Even though not all of the issues that resulted in my being away are resolved I am endeavouring to make up for my absence and will try not to let you down again in the future.

Amy.

Thursday, 17 January 2013

Doctor Who 'Magic of the Angls' Review




‘Magic of the Angels’ is a 2012 Quick Read Doctor Who novella.  Set during present day it follows the Doctor, Amy and Rory as they take a break from fighting aliens and exploring other times and places to have a quiet day in London.  Having been thrown out of several establishments due to the Doctor’s misbehaviour the trio decide to head to the theatre.

On their way to the theatre the three of them notice an unusually large amount of pissing person’s flyers, all of girls aged around twenty.  At the theatre they watch a show by an up and coming magician Sammy Star, however, things take a turn for the sinister during the grand finale when the Doctor, Amy and Rory realise that the way Sammy Star makes his assistant disappear is with a little bit of help from a Weeping Angel.

‘Magic of the Angels’ clocks in at 110 pages, and is easily read in one sitting.  Filled with fast moving scenes and quick and easy descriptions the book doesn’t take any tie to set the mood or build upon the characters.  Instead this short story focuses purely on the story, moving along at a nice brisk pace to its conclusion.

Despite this it still finds the time to give you some nice character moments, allowing the scenes between Rory and the victims f the Weeping Angel to feel quite genuine and fairly moving.  

This book won’t take long to read and is very easy to get to grips with.  If you’re a fan of the show, and the Weeping Angels in particular, it’s a nice little story that will entertain you for an hour.  6/10

Amy.
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3000 Hits!

Wow!  Up to 3000 hits already, only 11 days after reaching 2000!  Thank you everyone that has been visiting my blog and taking the time to read my work.  Your comments and messages of support have been amazing.

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Wednesday, 16 January 2013

Doctor Who 'Closing Time' Review



Craig looks on as the Doctor examines a Cybermat.

Nearly two hundred years have passed for the Doctor since he left Amy and Rory behind and started travelling on his own and is on a ‘farewell tour’ of his friends before he returns to Lake Silencio to face his death.  The doctor decides to visit his former ‘housemate’ Craig and notices some strange electrical disturbances in the area and decides to investigate.

The Doctor tracks the disturbances to a department store and gets a job there in order to investigate.  He end up meeting up with Craig a second time and Craig finds himself and his baby son drawn into the mystery. 

Discovering that the department store is built on the remains of a crashed Cybership the Doctor and Craig must find a way of stopping the last few remaining Cybermen before they find a way to attack the surface world.
The Doctor is captured by the Cybermen.
‘Closing Time’ is the last episode leading to the final episode of series six and the Doctors confrontation with the Silence and his potential death.  However, it feels like a waste of an episode.  I can’t help but feel that there should have been something special in this penultimate spot, instead we get a silly and dull story that once again makes the Cybermen look awful.

Having the Doctor run around a department store whilst his comedy side kick gets mistaken for a pervert, then his boyfriend is almost embarrassing to watch.  Plus the Cybermen get blow up by love.  Blown up by love?  What in holy hell is going on?

The only good pieces in this episode are the return of the Cybermats, though I can’t help but think they were included just for merchandising and producing the hot new Doctor Who toy that Christmas and the final scene featuring River Song and the Silence.  In this final scene we see a young River, having only met the Doctor once at this point, searching for information about him when she is captured by Madame Kovarian and the Silence and forced into the space suit, ready to kill the Doctor.
River is made ready to kill the Doctor.
This final scene was what the whole episode should have been, a dramatic build up to the big finale, instead we get silly comedy and some of the worst Cybermen to date.  A  massive disappointment.  4/10

Amy.
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'Dredd' Review




Last night I watched ‘Dredd’ for the first time, a film that my housemate saw when it first came out in the cinema and has raved about since.  With all of the praise he had given it, and remembering what the last film based on Judge Dredd was like, I went into this film with a little trepidation.  Despite this I was hoping for the best.  Boy did this film deliver!

Set in the massive surroundings of Mega City One ‘Dredd’ follows a day in the life of Judge Dredd as he is assigned to assess rookie Judge Anderson.  Having technically failed her entrance exams but offered a place as a Judge due to her extra-ordinary psychic abilities Dredd is initially harsh and distrustful of his rookie partner.

Respond to what they believe to be a routine murder investigation the two Judges’ find themselves drawn into a web of murder, torture and drugs as they become sealed inside the Peach Trees mega block, a two hundred story building home to thousands.  Central hub of the Ma-Ma gang and the manufacture and distribution centre of the drug Sol-Mo the inhabitants are told to kill the two Judges or remain sealed inside the building forever.

Judge Dredd and Anderson are forced to fight their way through the levels of Peach Trees and a small army of gang members in order to find Ma-Ma and end her reign of terror.


‘Dredd’ is a beautifully made film, with a great combination of science fiction and the modern world that creates a unique and very believable future.  Some characters look like they belong in science fiction, others look like someone you would pass on the street but both styles work together brilliantly. 

Despite the simplicity of the plot of the film, trapped in a building forced to fight their way to the top, the story never lags and has plenty of time for some stunning action sequences as well as interesting character moments.

The action in the film doesn’t bother pulling any punches and whilst not the goriest action film I’ve ever seen doesn’t shy away from showing the brutal effects of violence.  The heroes are not afraid go gun down the villains, but as police officers they offer them every chance they have to surrender peacefully, only taking lethal action when forced to.

All of the main cast members have been brilliantly cast, with Karl Urban playing a much more believable Dredd than Stallone ever did.  His Dredd feels like a regular human being, a man dedicated to his job and hardened by years on the streets.  Yes, he’s a comic book character, but he’s not a super hero.  He’s a cop.  Urban gets this message across brilliantly.


Olivia Thirlby plays Judge Anderson, another of the main characters from the 2000AD comics and is an important part of the Judge Dredd mythos.  Thirlby plays the character well, making her the light to Dredd’s dark.  She also shows a great deal of character progression too, going from a fresh faced rookie judge to a battle hardened warrior by the end of the film.

Lena Heady plays the main villain Ma-Ma, a brand new character for the film, does so will relish.  Heady plays such a horrid looking and vile woman that it’s hard to remember that she’s an attractive woman beneath the scars and rotten teeth she wears in this film.  A devious, some times almost psychotic, villain that proves to be a great threat for our heroes, throwing hundreds of her people against them and not being afraid of collateral damage.

‘Dredd’ is one of those great comic book movies that have started to become a staple of the genre in this age.  Unfortunately unlike such films as The Avengers, The Amazing Spider-Man and The Dark Knight Rises, all of which came out the same year as Dredd, it was a commercial failure.  Perhaps there isn’t as large a fan base out there for Judge Dredd, maybe the general public were put off by how violent it looked or maybe there were just not enough people aware of it.  In any case it is an absolute crime that we will not be treated to another film.  We can only hope that the DVD and Blu-Ray sales are sufficient enough to warrant a second film.  So go out and buy a copy now, and encourage your friends to do so.  And if you’re going to buy it get it from HMV! 

Amy.

Tuesday, 15 January 2013

Recent Attacks On The Trans Community In The Media



As some of you may be aware there were a number of articles in the British press over the last few weeks that were very transphobic, and in some cases just down right disgusting.  Normally I don’t react to the comments and opinions expressed on the Internet.  I know what to expect, the types of people that hide behind their computer screens and spout their backwards opinions.  This time however I couldn’t help but to drawn in to what was happening, because of not only the content but where it was appearing.

All of this started when ‘The New Statesman’ published an except from journalist Suzanne Moore’s new book.  The piece looked at the concept of anger, and why women should remain angry in society during the current political climate.  The main problem with the except, however, came when she was discussing the physical ideal that women are expected to live up to she expressed that women should look like ‘Brazilian Transsexuals’.

At this point I have to admit I was not too bothered by her comment.  Yes, it was bad I admit that and Brazilian Transsexuals made up over a hundred names in the 2012 Transgender Day of Remembrance list.  Despite the stupidity of her statement I felt like I had read worse elsewhere and that was something said out of ignorance rather than any kind of hatred towards Trans people.

A number of people did not share my views on this situation and were angry, as they were within their right to be.  These people took to twitter and expressed their views on Moore’s statement.  This would have been a good time for her to apologise for her comment and accept the criticism give to her.  Instead she fought back, replying with more offensive statements which in turn caused more criticism igniting a whole twitter argument.  Unable to compete with the in pouring of comments Moore quitted twitter, though not before posting a flippant comment on The Gurdian.

So that’s the end right?  Unfortunately not.  It was at this point that Joe Burchill, a writer and friend of Suzanne Moore, joined the debate.  Unfortunately Burchill has long been known for her transphobic and frankly disgusting views on Trans issues.  She even at one time called for all sex workers to be shot.  Definitely a level headed woman then.

Burchill’s piece appeared on The Guardian’s website, though rather than being a professional journalistic opinion piece read more like a hate message from an extremist blog.  Burchill blatantly admits that she is attacking Trans people because of the comments her friend received.  She doesn’t even try to hide it.  What’s worse is the language she uses.  Stating that she knows how offensive the words are she goes on to use the terms ‘trannys’, ‘she-males’, ‘shims’ and ‘dicks in dresses’ on numerous occasions.  She even attempts to justify using these terms because she finds offence in the word Cis when used to describe non trans people.

Now, anyone with a single shred of common sense would try to find out what this word means before turning around and attacking other people for using it.  Burchill does not, simply stating that it ‘sounds like syph, cyst, cistern; all nasty stuff’.  What she would know if she took all of a minute to research before attacking is that Cis is short for Cissexual, a standard medical term for someone born into the correct body.  It is simply the opposite of Trans being short for Transsexual and not an insult in any way.  Instead of learning this though she just proceeds to throw around insults and slurs because she’s ill informed and upset that her friend got told off.

These horrid statements light a fire under the Trans community that I’d never seen before, with many Trans and Cis people coming to the dense of the Trans community.  Normally when reading through the comments section for an article like this there is a mixture of support and disagreement on the points made in the article, this time however all I saw was people outraged by what was written.

Within hours of being published there were a number of petitions made and advice given out about where to complain to.  Government Minister Lynne Featherstone, former Equalities Minister, spoke out calling for Burchill to be ejected from The Observer.

Suzanne Moore quickly returned to twitter and issued an apology and Burchill’s article was withdrawn.  The speed at which this was done was amazing, with so many people rallying to the cause.  Its very heart warming to see so many people coming to the defence of the Trans community the way they did.

My biggest concern, however, is that Burchill should not have even been allowed to publish such an article within the mainstream press to begin with.  Even someone that is not Trans, or knows anyone that is Trans, would find offence reading the article.  It dripped venom.  So why was it even allowed to be published to begin with?  If it were any other minority group being attacked in this way the publisher wouldn’t dare touch the piece, let alone put it up on their website.

Tighter checks need to be put in place to stop things like this happening in the future, as attacks like this are simply unacceptable in what is supposed to be an enlightened society.  Trans people go through enough pain and have to deal with enough prejudice in their daily lives as it is, without the media allowing these very public, very personal attacks.

I know that there are some people reading this that will disagree with me, that will think that I’m just another Trans person who thinks that the whole world is out to get me, or wants attention or is finding insults where none really exist.  To these people I simply say that I’m sorry you believe that, but most of all I’m glad that you don’t have to read articles like the one Burchill produced.  This is not me blowing things out of proportion, or crying wolf.  Instead I am simply saddened at the way the world is that things like this are allowed to happen to begin with.

Amy.