Torchwood 'Countrycide' Review

The Torchwood team swaps the city for the country.

The Torchwood team leave Cardiff and head to the Brecon Beacons to investigate into the disappearances of seventeen people inside a twenty mile area.  Whilst setting up camp the team see a pair of hooded figures in the woods, and after making chase find a body.  As the team investigate the body to try and find a cause of death they hear their range rover start and drive off without the team.

Tracking the range rover to a nearby village the team search the houses and find another two corpses.  Other than that they are deserted, apart from one lone survivor who accidentally shoots Gwen with a shotgun, thinking that ‘they’ had come back for him.  Barricading themselves in the pub the team tend to Gwen’s wounds as they come under attack. 

Can the team avoid a grizzly fate?

‘Countrycide’ is one of the few episodes of Torchwood not to have an alien threat and to be se outside of Cardiff.  

Set up very quickly as the ‘horror’ episode of the series it takes its time to set up the threat, keeping the villains in the shadows as long as possible to maintain the mystery of exactly what is hunting our heroes. 

Unfortunately the episode is a part of the first series of the show where they seemed to be hung up on the ‘adult’ content of the show, which they seem to used anger and sex to create.  As such there is not a great deal of character development beyond some arguments and nasty comments. 

The team have to fight to survive.

One for the greater disappointments of Torchwood is that it took them a while to figure out the tone and feel of the show and this episode does suffer a little for it.  If this episode had taken place during series two you  might have had a greater connection and empathy with the Torchwood team and felt the tension more, as it is it’s just like any old horror film with a cast of characters that don’t mean a great deal to you.

Despite these flaws the episode is still very engaging and at the end where the villain gives his reasons for doing what he does it’s one of the most chilling moments in the show.

A good horror episode that’s only let down by the fact that the show’s still finding its footing at this early stage. 7/10

Amy.
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Relationships

I’ve never been comfortable with dating.  In fact, I’ve avoided it where possible if I’m being honest.  There have been a number of situations over the years where the opportunities for a fling or a relationship have come along, but some part of me wouldn’t let me do it.  I never really felt comfortable with the idea of dating someone, even though I was desperate for some sense of companionship and love. 

I now know that it was being trans that was standing in my way.  I wasn’t comfortable with the gender roles in relationships because they just didn’t apply to me.  Even before I’d figured out I was transgender some part of me must have known it and stopped me from being in a relationship.  I can see it all quite clearly now, though at the time I just didn’t understand what was wrong with me.

Now I am out to both myself and the people around me and much, much more comfortable with myself as a person, even though I am very early in the transition stage, and couldn’t even begin to hope to pass as female I am at least being treated as one by my friends.  The thing is, now that I am comfortable with myself and acknowledge the fact that I am Trans I still feel like I can’t date anyone.

I find myself in this horrible situation where I don’t even know where to begin, how I’d go about doing it.  I look male.  I’m trying my hardest to start transitioning but to be 100% honest people will look at me and see a man, not in a million years would they see a woman.  So how do I deal with being a trans woman that looks male when dating?

I guess I just don’t understand how anyone would want to be in a relationship with me when I am at this point in my transition.  Personality is definitely the biggest factor when choosing someone to be in a relationship with, but lets all be honest, what the person looks like is a huge part too.

I’d like to believe that there are people out there who would turn around and say that they are attracted to someone for who they are 100% and that their looks don’t play any part of it, but would that be true?  Surely the thing that separates friendships and relationships is the physical attraction.

As such I look at myself and question how anyone would be able to enter a relationship with me when at the moment my whole physical being is going to change.  I’ve not even started hormones yet so there isn’t even a hint at what I might end up looking like.  Surely if someone wanted to be in a relationship with me they’d be taking a complete gamble on what I’d even end up looking like.

I know that there are people that are attracted to trans people, and that they wouldn’t find anything wrong with dating a trans person, but when the trans person doesn’t fit that model because they’re physically all male what then?

The main reason this is bothering me at the moment is that I just feel incredibly lonely.  I’ve been single most of my life, and am fairly used to it, but when everyone around you is either in a relationship or starting a relationship and you can’t help but think about your own romantic situation.

Because of these concerns I have about relationships whilst transitioning I can’t help but fear that I’m going to at least thirty or more before I’m even going to be able to have a relationship with anyone.  I know that thirty isn’t especially old, but I can’t help but feel like I’ve already lost out on so much of my life, so many experiences, that having to wait is just going to add to that list of stuff that I’ve missed out on.

One of the worst parts of being trans is that I feel like my life isn’t real, that everything I do doesn’t count or isn’t real because right now I’m not really me. I look around me at other people living their lives, building their futures and being happy and I feel like I just don’t have any of that.  Despite everything I’ve achieved in my life I just can’t take any real pride in it. 

For years I wanted to be a published writer, to have a book with my name on it.  I did that.  I set my sights on that goal and I achieved it, but it wasn’t what I thought it would be.  I can see why now, once again it was being trans that was ruining it for me without me even understanding why.  I look at the books I have worked on and all I see is the name Mark Walker, mocking me.  ‘Here’s your published work’ it says ‘but it doesn’t even have your real name on it.’

I hate being alone when everyone else around me is happy, but I can’t even begin to figure out how to change that.  I’m too hard on myself, and too cynical about the world.  I’m sure that if I really tried that I’d find a man or a woman who’d like me for who I was and what I was wouldn’t be an issue, but it just seems too fantastical to be true.  I just can’t believe that it would happen.

Amy.

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Doctor Who 'The Lazarus Experiment' Review

The Doctor returns Martha home to her flat twelve hours after they first left in the Tardis, telling her that her reward is done and it’s time for her to get back to her normal life.  Under instructions from Martha’s mother Francine they turn on the television to see Martha’s sister Trish.  Trish is part of a news report about her boss, Professor Lazarus, who is claiming that later that night he will ‘change what it means to be human’.  Intrigued by his statement the Doctor and Martha decide to investigate.

That night the two of them attend a function held at Lazarus labs and meet up with Trish, Francine and Martha’s brother Leo.  Francine is initially distrustful of the Doctor and his interest in her daughter but the two of them are interrupted when Lazarus begins his demonstration.  Stepping into a capsule in the centre of the room Lazarus claims he will perform a miracle.  The machine activates and is flooded with energy.  When it comes to a stop Lazarus emerges, now a young man.

Concerned with the effects the machine may have upon the subjects DNA the Doctor and Martha get a sample of Lazarus’ DNA to test, which they discover is fluctuating and highly unstable.  Meanwhile Lazarus mutates into a giant scorpion like creature and must drain the life force from victims in order to regain his human form, using it to stabilise his own DNA.  The Doctor and Martha must find a way of stopping the monstrous Lazarus before he kills again, with Martha’s family potential victims.

Lazarus activates his machine.

‘The Lazarus Experiment’ is by no means a complicated episode.  Boiled down to its simplest description it’s simply a creature movie where the mad scientist has made himself a monster and must be stopped.  There is nothing wrong with this style of episode, there’s no great thinking going on, you don’t have to pay a lot of attention, just simply be taken along for the ride and enjoy the action for what it is.

The Lazarus monster is a cool creation, though the CGI effects felt dated when the episode first aired.  It’s a real shame to see what could have been a very memorable creature be reduced to ‘wasn’t it crap looking’ status.

The Lazarus monster prepares to attack Francine and Leo.

Lazarus himself if performed brilliantly by long time Who contributor Mark Gatiss, who manages to play the elderly Lazarus convincingly enough and brings a lot of depth and age to the younger version of the character.  The addition of Martha’s family is also done well, with the mysterious Mr Saxon sending people to manipulate them against the Doctor, adding to the series’ through plot.

An entertaining monster movie like episode with a great creature and excellent supporting cast.  Easily overshadowed by some of the better episodes in series three it’s still a great little episode.  7/10.

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The Sarah Jane Adventures 'Whatever Happened to Sarah Jane?' Review

The Trickster captures Sarah Jane.

The story begins with Sarah Jane giving Maria a puzzle box that was given to her by a passing alien seer that ells her to ‘remember’ and pass it along to the person she trusts the most.  A meteor is on a collision course for earth and Sarah Jane has set up, yet not activated, a force field through Mr Smith that will deflect the threat away.  With everything seemingly in hand Maria returns home for the night and falls asleep.

The next morning she wakes to find that no one has heard of either Sarah Jane or Luke Smith and that a woman named Andrea Yates is now living in Sarah Jane’s house.  Investigating into Andreas past Maria discovers that in 1964 a thirteen year-old Sarah Jane drowned after falling from a pier when she was playing there with her friend Andrea Yates. 

With no one else remembering that Sarah Jane existed and the meteor still on its way to earth Maria must find out how this change of history has happened and if possible find a way of reversing the effects and bringing Sarah Jane back before it’s too late.

Maria is surprised to find Andrea in Sarah Jane's place.

‘Whatever Happened to Sarah Jane?’ is the first episode where The Sarah Jane Adventures showed audiences that it could be more than just a kids version of Doctor Who.  The story is filled with grown up concepts and deals with life and death without shying away from the emotion that comes with it.  The scenes where Andrea realises that she must ‘kill’ herself in order to bring Sarah Jane back are amazingly well written and acted and tug at the heart.

This story marks the introduction of The Trickster, who would go on to appear in a number of other Sarah Jane stories and becomes something of her biggest foe over the course of the show.  The Trickster’s scary design along with the brilliant acting skills of Paul Marc Davis create a villain worthy of Sarah Jane, one that is a welcome addition to the Doctor Who universe.

Brilliantly acted by the main cast and with a great performance from Jane Asher as Andrea Yates this story marks a turning point in the show where it becomes more than kids fighting monsters and develops into a show that can have a very serious edge that doesn’t shy away from emotion or consequences.  7/10

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Metal Gear Rising Demo Impressions

When Metal Gear Rising was first announced I was initially sceptical of the concept.  Then I replayed Metal Gear Solid 4 and saw cyborg ninja Raiden in action again and my initial doubts were replaced with excitement.  I mean, who wouldn’t want to play as Raiden now we’ve seen what he’ capable of?  What wouldn’t be amazing about killing Metal Gears with a samurai sword?

The first of the game footage came out and showed u that the game would let you cut anything and everything you could imagine.  The swordplay looked amazing and could actually make you feel like you could actually experience the coolness of being a cyborg ninja.

Then they released more footage and the game started to take a slightly different turn.  It suddenly struck me that the game looked more like Devil May Cry or Darksiders than any kind of Metal Gear game I had ever seen before.  My heart began to lowly sink and my excitement turned once again to scepticism and doubt.

However, today was the day that the first demo for Rising was released on Xbox Live.  Downloading it as quickly as I could and loaded it up.  Despite my misgivings I wanted to get a feel of the game, to see if my doubts were justified or not.

I still don’t know what to make of the game though.  It does feel a lot like Metal Gear Solid, but down to small things like the inclusion of the Codec, getting to fight the Gecko’s and certain sound effects.  Other than that the game just didn’t feel like a Metal Gear Solid game.  Maybe I’m just so used to sneaking around and avoiding enemies that the idea of fighting them intentionally just seems weird to me.

Despite the major differences in game play to other titles in the series I’m still holding out hope that the story will engaging enough to capture my imagination.  For me the best parts of the Metal Gear Solid series has been the amazing stories and characters that have been such a staple of the series.  Hopefully Rising will continue to uphold these traditions of story telling.

For now I’m still uncertain as to how the game will be outside of a demo, and a lot of what my opinion will be will be based upon how the story continues on from Metal Gear Solid 4 and how well it lives u to the legacy of its predecessors.  For now I’m going to go into rising with some fears, but some hope as well.

Amy.

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